plan 'B"

today feeling so empty ..
lonely...
sick....
& miserable...

Heard my scholar delay and i dont have any other plan...July is coming soon and Melbourne is waiting for a new beginning...this make me thinking like crazy now...hope the result will come out soon..

at work i feel so blur and sometimes felt i gain only few things and the cruel one is i am doing the same thing every single day...ya im not happy with my job..with repeating the same task everyday and freaking like hell here..even though my office mate are all nice and boleh tahan but at one point whats for..i need to learned and absorb new idea..and im not having it here...so frustrated...
you know what..during my interview here..he said (the Boss) that i will get the opportunity to learned new skill and have great experience by working with him but what i get is nothing accept for i am learned from my mistake of choosing to work with him and his 'stingy 'family...(BTW this place i working for is a family oriented firm...and i really regret about this...

and now i need my plan B..and i dont know what to do next since there are issues with my scholarship and beside that i dont have any back up plan...help me...

what i know is im going to quit the job and look for another related job and doing something better for myself...if im not going to further my study soon la..its depend on the money...omGosh....im feeling so sick and need a break...i need to think again...